SOMETHING'S WRONG

Hello! I've decided to just quit this blog! I'm too busy updating the Norwegian blog, and I don't like the name on this blog either. I don't know it I'll leave it for a while and then maybe try to change the name, header and just start all over again. I don't know if I want to delete my account because I have so many dear memories here I don't want to delete! Hm...
We'll see. Right now you can keep yourself updated on feilinformert.blogg.no ( I would like this blog to be named that, missinformed.blogspot.com instead og my name, sucks!

Peace!

I been gone for so long

Hello again. After I don't know how long I found out that I probably should start writing here again since I am moving to England very soon and this is great training for my English. Well. this time I don't have so much to say. I've been around, my head in school books and nothing special that happened. I can do a quick update an other time and for now, so long.

It's good to see you again...

The funniest man on a long time!

Rooftop and bad wine

I had a great time with one of my best friends, Angel, on his rooftop, in Sandefjord. Vi talk about everything and nothing, and no one has ever made that sense like he did during a conversation about nothing! Maybe the wine had something to do with it!? I don't know, but I wanted to stop time and live that moment forever!

Yesterday, and everyday since that day I've been feeling things I didn't think I felt, things I didn't feel, but was insecure to feel and now I don't know if I felt it at all!? Did I make sense? Well, I get it if I don't. I want to know what to feel, know how to feel and more. I want to know if I made a mistake i shouldn't have done and I want to know if there is more time to regret doing those mistakes! 

I don't want to grow up! I'm afraid of what the future brings. The ups and downs, if I'll live happy, if I die old. I don't like the future, I love now! I love the people in my life right now, I love the place i live right now, I love everything about now! But it's hard to know if now is my best time of life, or will the best time be in five years? I don't know, do you? 

All around me are familliar faces

Today I haven't used my day with any sense. I have slept a lot, and bought some stuff from a secondhand store. The lady is really over prized! Really! But i still bought some stuff. A sweater, a jacket and a blouse. Really cute!
Afterwards i have spent the rest of my day watching a friend play Joshi. We just hang out a couple of friends and had a great time.

What do we feel now?

The TV's on, mute. 
The radio is on, mute.
The only thing I actually hear is my neighbor upstairs, the tapping of my typing, and the music from Spotify; Foals - Spanish Sahara.
What do I see, feel? The lamp post outside that can't decide if it want to stay on, or off.
The light of my computer screen is to sharp. My eyes hurt, like when I'm too tired!
What else? What do I sense? 
Smell: nothing
Feelings: Nothing

I don't feel lonely, I don't feel afraid.
I don't feel sad, hurt or mad.
I don't feel happy, glad or tired.
NOTHING, absolutely nothing!! 

I don't feel the voice in the back of my head, I don't feel thedark, the light. 
I just know I'm alive, not for sure, but still. 

Fake it

Wow, it's really easy to pretend I'm someone else. Put on a fake mask and fake it! 
The only negative thing about this is; it feels like a parasite! I can't do anything, I feel so trapped in my own lies. And I can't get out! We'll try harder next time? No, there won't be a next time! I really need someone to save me, but I won't admit I have any faults to fix! Fuck it!