A family of dreams fallin'

When you come to that point where such things as family are no longer an important thing in your head, you should do something abaout it! Sometimes it might be to late.
Times when you sit all by yourself, chatting on messenger or commenting something on facebook at the sime time as your listening to music that uses to make you feel something more, but don't feel anything! Those times. Those times are scary. No, they aren't that either, because you don't feel anything.  So they can impossible be scary.
Things that made you laugh, makes you cry. Things that made you feel you had fell in love, make you feel like you hate. Things that used to make  you feel glad, makes you angry.
It's a mad world. 
I feel like Donnie Darko (search for the film-trailer). Sick, stuck in a mad world. 
Sometimes I wish we could do the same operations as they do in "Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind". Just errase everything you want to. Errase people from your life in just one night! (and btw, I really recomand these movies) I don't understand myself sometimes. I really start to believe myself when I tell people (just on joke) that I don't have feelings, I do things on impulses. I do what fit's me the best. Awh, I don't know. I don't know where to burry my head down anymore! Can someone help me, please!

We are no longer in disguise

We should turn our faces to the world and show ourselves! 
We shouldn't be afraid to tell the truth.
We shoulb yell and scream untill people hear why wer'e screaming.
We shouldn't be afraid. 

You know, I feel so unlucky! 
Like everything bad always have to happen' round me!
It's like someone telling me that I never can win this!
I'm telling you I'm going to take this.
I am always fighting.
Now watch you burn.
Sometimes it feels like hell! Screaming and yelling, but I will show that I'm not always hiding.
Someday I'll set you on fire, to finally watch you burn!


Ok, to put all this text in a way people might understand.
I'm like people most. Wan't things I can't get.
Then. I'm holding a baloon. Filled with air. The baloon it's made og glass.
I hold it safe, but still not so safe in my hands. Clumsy hands.

Then, I catch my dream that floats safe in the air.
The baloon that used to be my dream (the air) fills up with water ( reallity)
I still have the baloon in my hands, but this time it doesn't floats in the air. It's too heavy.
So what happens next?
The baloon slips from my hands. Falls to ground.
Smash, and the reallity it's gone. 
My next obtion! The dream, that is in my mind. 

Why do I have to be so clumsy!!??
I feel nothing at all!

I'm the opposite of king Midas, everything I touch, turns to shit!

Living by seconds

Aight, now (finally) I'll write everything with the details I remember.
I can start with Halloween, it was awsome!! I was a dead-cyber-nurse (as I wrote) with white contacts and a lot of blooooood!!!  Ok, the hours passed and I got to know a lot of new people. So, when it was nearly two am I was exausted. I'm NOT a night-person. So I just wanted to fall into dream-world. I started to look for bed, or a place to sleep. I didn't find anything, so I fell asleep on the warm bathroom-floor. Two hours later I woke up and found one biiig bed. And the best thiiing was, NO ONE was sleeping in it! Amazing. Ok, here comes the freaki or fun part. Depends how you look at it. I woke up feeling that someone was huging me. I opened my eyes, and there a guy dressed like a norwegian oger (troll) was over me and sudently kissed me on my cheek. I jumped out of the bed and ran downstairs. Haha, later I understood that he was just confused and still drunk. AND he apologized to me. 

GET FOCUSED
Get focused was the IT of this fall! I had so much fun. I was working with the group named "Get lættis" something as lol. Ok, we were suposed to be stand up somedians and make a show with some games. It was so fun. I almost couldn't talk bcause I laughed so much.
At the festival therer was a wolleyyball compatition, conserts, preeches and much more. Ellen Miles sang. She is pretty amazing. (chech out Ellen Miles on Facebook) I also met an old friend, who looked pretty hot now. Haha. (hope he doesn't see this) And it was cool, I prayed and got a new start. And I think I ate like 3 times for the whole weekend. I gave everything I had  to Get Involved. (www.getfocused.com).
Here you can Simen with the mic and me behind him with some other people.


UNITE LARVIK
Unite was yesterday. I woke up and around 1 o'clock I went down to the church to start fixin' the scene. Make some banders and fix the tables in the café. A man from Ungfila, Oslo preeched. It was amazing. He filled my head with so much energi and thoughts Ii never thought abaout before. We sang a lot, many songs from Jesus Culture and Hillsong. And the entertament was Alex and Tom. The had a chilli eating compatition live, and it was awsome. Tom started crying, haha. I had a great time with friends, and also got to know other people better. The whole thing ended arround 12. It was great. And next year it will be a thousand times better!!!  
-xoxo

Update with regrets

Update with regrets? Ok, I can just update fast, because I don't got a lot of time right now. Latly I've been on a halloween party, it was cool, I was dressed as a dead-cyber-nurse (don't ask) a lot of blood and white contacts and stuff... I woke up with an "oger" beside me, (nothing happened) but I was so confused and jumped out  of the bed, because I went to an EMPTY bed and fell asleep. Ok, up next was GET FOCUSED!!!! I swear! It was AWSOME!!!  I 've never felt that way. So happy, almost like I've fallen in love. I'll tell you more about it later. This happened this weekend. And hm...nothing more special actually. I got a borring life. But next weekend it's Unite Larvik. I can't wait!

I miss STINE! miss you, miss you soooo much!!!

Movies and cute guys

It's been a time since the last time, but you'll survive...

Ok, I don't remember aaaall the days, but i can tell some of those I do remember. Tuesday it was a concert at the school "Gaia-konserten" and it was so fun. I met an old friend, that I haven't seen on a long time. So that was great. I have to admit, he was looking great, I could say hot, but that would be rude. Haha, no, I'm a liar, he was. And an amazing singer!! And the trip home was awsome... Ole drove, with Simen and Sondre in the car, I just couldn't do anything else but laugh. We had a car-game...   it goes like f.ex: would you eat my poop or drink his pee...haha. It was cool. 

Then, on friday I worked, but felt sick, so I went home, but later I was with a friend, Christer. We went to a church where we were alone and sang to "Rent" playbacks. THAT was also AAAAWSOME!!! So, saturnday I worked, but later I was supposed to go to a meating but loss the buss, so I and my girlfriends went to wach the new film "Fame" So Aida, Ilda, Resmije, Anisa, Alice and me saw it together. I loved the film, I just wanted to leave out my dream, but if it only was that easy, right. Also there was so many cute guys and amazing talents in the movie. We can't forget that. hehe...

Except for that I have desided to take three new piercings, or maby just two... I want hips and maby cleeve. Both places are cool, but I think that it might be too much with  cleeve. What do  you think? Any respons? But I can sure just dream about that stomach, but the piercings would be cool. The next time I got money .

Ildas place

Jobb, jobb, jobb, jobb... mye jobbing, men null salg. DET er dritt, men det var jo litt gøy fordeom da! Svenskene er kule, og Ali vant vin, han ble så lykkelig! Hehe, og så på vei hjem fra jobb, akkurat da jeg kom til bussholdeplassen kom jeg på at mobilen min fortsatt var til lading på  jobb. Kjipt!  Etter jobb trøstet jeg meg med en is før bussen kom, satt i sola og nøyt den godt! Så var det hjem Digg! Dusje, enda diggere! Så var det til for Disney Channel, magikerne på beverly place. Etter det, Ilda kom, vi gikk en tur, siden vi ikke har noe liv, og det er sånn vi sløser bort tide, så gikk vi til Ilda og spiste.  Så kom Sara og fortyrra, men det gjør ikke noe, hun hadde masse godteri. Haha,  så det var koselig. Vi hørte på masse musikk og jeg tviler på at en eneste sang ble spilt ferdig! Men mye forskellig hvertfall. Alt fra Bethoven til The corrs... morsomt.

Det hele toppet dagen med at Stine var på msn, jeg er så glad i den jenta, og jeg savner hun skikkelig!!!  Trist hun er så langt unna :(
Også ja, jeg har fått sånn reefill på dilla av A fine frenzy, hun har jo kommet ut med ny plate og greier. (9/08/09) som heter så mye som "bomb in a birdcage" Har hørt noe, og så langt, er jeg stoooor fornøyd! Jeg har som alltid, også vært syyyykt jente-forelska i henne!! Hun er så sykt pen, og jeg skal bli henne! Jeg er vanligvis veldig mot copy.cats, men jeg skal ha min egen touch, men håret mitt vil jeg ha sånn...selv om jeg så må bleke det ned først! I'll do it!!

Jeg vil rett og slett se ut som henne, ha hennes karierre og utsende! Love love love, Jeg vet jeg er fjortiss nå, men noen ting gjør meg sånn!!! :D

Allison Sudol

Fylkeselevråds oppstarts-seminar

Idag kom jeg "endelig" hjem fra en to dagers lang oppstarts-seminar for fylkeselevrådet. Det var noe jeg absolutt ambefaler for alle!! Hehe.. Det startet 10 på mandag på politiskolen i Stavern, startet med litt informasjon, bli kjent leker og debatter. Følte at alt ble mere serriøst, noe som gjorde det hele mye bedre å kunne føre både dialoger og diskusjoner med alle der. Skulle ønske det var litt oftere sånn i klasse debattene. Vi fikk også omvisning på Thor Heyerdal, den nye storskolen i Larvik. Det var også veldig spennede. 
Så var det lunsj, spiste laks, det var digg det. Og vi gikk rundt omkring og koste oss og en tur til nærmeste butikk å kjøpe godis.
Etter det var det den kulturelle skolesekken som hadde ordet tilbake på politiskolen, der fikk vi ett lite innslag med Bellman (skrevet om dem før i et innlegg fra april) det var kjempe bra, helt utrolig faktisk. De er like bra live som i studio!Legger ved link.
http://www11.nrk.no/urort/Bellman/default.aspx
 Så ble det mye snakk om hva det var osv, vi fikk da t-shirts, lypsil, penner og brosjyrer. Haha
Og når de hadde gått var det mere bli kjent tid. Vi satt å snakket og koste oss. Kort-triks, biljard, tv osv osv... Etter hvert ble det til at alle satt å lo av x-faktor og jeg la meg ikke før 12, de fleste gjorde vell det. 

Idag satte jeg og Sandra ( hun jeg delte rom med) vekkeklokka på 7, men så slumra vi den helt fram til hvart på åtte. Begger stressa litt da og trodde vi kom for sent til frokosten. Men der satt bare Ulrik, helt alene. De fleste kom rett etter oss da. Så hadde vi et møte med VKT (Vestviken kollektiv transport) og fikk mye info av de når det gjaldt bussene i vestfold. Så var det tid for å velge styret i fylkeselevrådet, og jeg stilte som både infoansvarlig og styremedlem, men fikke ikke noen av plassene. Det var da Bjør-Kristian og Mirna som tok, men jeg tror begge kommer til å gjøre en veldig bra jobb. Dessuten fikk jeg plass sommedlem i den kulturelle skole-sekken, og et annet styre som egentlig ikke hadde noe spesielt navn, men jeg kaller det internasjonalt ungdomsarbeid. Det gikk ut på å sammarbeide med elever og ungdommer i hele norge og Europa. Så det første seminaret er da i Hamar, så blir det Danmark osv. Gleder meg både til å jobbe med kultur og internasjonalt sammarbeid. Det tror jeg kan bli veldig spennende og lærerikt. 

Bilder fra Fredriksverf i Stavern, (politiskolen)